There are days when from out of the blue
while i am half awake and half asleep
i see this man come in my dream
he does not have a face
no features
i try to find out who he is
but he is not anyone i know
he is an unknown man
he is sleeping with a woman already
he is just talking to her
when he sees me
he leaves her
and he moves towards me
i think why is he giving me so much of importance
he does not even know me
well may be that is the best part
my dreams don’t want to know him
if he knows who i am
he will not desire me
so he doesn’t know me
he likes me sitting there
and he comes to me
he does not even talk
he does not even touch me
he looks at me
he looks into my eyes
he is not judging me
he is just plain simple looking at me
no questions
no answers
no converstations
none that i can see in his eyes
i have never seen a man like him
none
after some time this woman
she comes and sits next to this man
he does not turn to her
i like that
he does not turn to her and he keeps staring at me
the woman goes away
we both are left alone
we touch each other
and we lie down
no questions asked
no answers given
we make love
plain simple love
the dream ends
i wake up
i try to tell myself i know him
i feel guilty of such thoughts coming to my mind
i am married
this is a sin
but the good thing is i don’t know this man
i feel less guilty
i feel more attracted to him
i close my eyes again
this man is smiling again
sitting on the same bed
he leaves the book that he is reading
and comes towards me
this time i see his face
but i have not seen him
who is he?
we make love again
i wake up
i start my day
i think about him all day
i try to sleep again
he doesn’t come
i start reading something and forming him in my mind
he will come tonight
again
i will ask him to come again
i like this man
but i will not name this dream love
i will call him “peace”
he makes my mind peaceful
i don’t need chaotic emotions
all i need is peace
this man is peace
i will dream of him tonight
because he will not ask me
he will desire me inspire of
everything around him
he will be with me
wait for me
and love me
without a word
a relationship
all men look
but a woman feels
guilty to even dream
i will dream without guilty
of this faceless man
i will give him face of my imagination
and nurture him
till eternity
fearlessly
yoursonali 